What do you do when it seems to engulf you? When it seems to crowd you and your sense of thinking? What do you do when you have done all that your little heart will let you do or even think of doing that seems to be the best way to grab on to what seems to be reality? What do you do when you have this little part of you that screams at every other part of you to actually “breathe” and control yourself? What do you do when your most inner self seems to be smothered with such thoughts as a want to be sane person with nothing left but doubt and despair?
I seem to love to become so involved in such situations that engulf my whole body mind and soul to a point that no matter how hard I try, I keep going the same direction of emotion. I love my life and they way it has finally come along. I love that I am starting to believe I have found someone who can and will truly see me for me . . . sometimes even before I see myself.
I have this deep part of me that is begging to come out and be real again. It seems to creep up at unexpected moments when even a spec of light seems to come about. Being nice and loving in every aspect that I can, is only my way of adjusting to my new-found resolution of my dark hidden past.