Other Closet Clutter



Here Come the Tears
Here Come the Tears (Photo credit: Wikipedia)




Tears from my past

Tears from denial

Tears that will last

All through my trial

Can’t find myself

to know what to do

Always asking

Why he took you

For all he has done

no one seems to care

they say too bad

I have to learn to share

I’m so lost on this one

I’m so scared to exist

he’s got me so trapped

and on his “hit” list

He’s had control

all these years

even still today

I have these fears

He’s taken hold

of any future had

and made me feel

so extremely bad

I scream inside

not knowing what to do

I hurt so bad

from what I’ve been through

Shaking from the pain

I hold inside

Sweating from the fear

I’ve learned to abide

Trying to be strong

he needs me still

Trying to hold on

as my tears fill

I keep myself busy

and try not to see

that everyday passes

I have to agree

Getting chills from the thought

of losing this fight

Trying not to cry

all through this night

Can’t seem to think

of anything else

can’t seem to fight

this by myself

I don’t want to think

of anything now

all I can do

is handle somehow




2 Replies to “Other Closet Clutter”

  1. I would be honored to have a copy of your ebook. It sounds like quite the entrancement of historical pain and personal growth. PDF would be fine! I look forward to reading it. love and light xo


  2. Dear Lena Rai,

    I am writing to offer you an ebook copy of my novel, Arabelle’s Shadows. I have put my heart and soul into this contemporary fiction novel which took me almost ten years to write.

    My purpose when writing this book was to show that our obsessions – wealth, beauty and thinness are not the accomplishments that will bring us happiness.

    Arabelle’s Shadows is based on my life. When I was a teenager I suffered from a severe depression. Though I sometimes lost the battle, I always fought against my depression and, in the end, I survived. I’m hoping that people who read my novel will be able to understand depression (and other mood disorders) a little better.

    Below is a summary of Arabelle’s Shadows. There is also a link to Amazon where you can read some reviews. I have created a simple website describing some of the strategies Arabelle (and I) use in order to deal with depression – there is a link to that too.

    If you would like a copy of Arabelle’s Shadows please write back and let me know which ebook format you would prefer. I hope to hear from you soon.

    Kind regards,

    Fleur Gaskin


    Everything in Arabelle’s life is coming together. She has confidence, great friends, she’s even dating Naak, a wealthy Thai socialite. But there are too many models in Bangkok. Arabelle’s broke, she can’t find an agent in New York, and Naak isn’t as wonderful as he first appears. Slowly the Shadows creep back into Arabelle’s mind, bringing with them thoughts of hopelessness and despair. The vile Shadows know something Arabelle’s refusing to remember and, if she’s not careful, they’ll use it to destroy her. Based on a true story, Arabelle’s Shadows takes us on a journey through the struggles of growing up, not quite making it as an international model, and attempting to overcome a crushing depression.



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