My heart is hurting!

I feel withered and alone
The pain that exists
Tears me up so deep inside
Why do I try
I’ve been told to quit
I’ve been told to back off
I’ve been told to slow down
Didn’t listen again.
My hands tremble
My breath is shallow
Not sure what to think
What have I done?
Why do they do this?
What makes it so real?
The depth of the cut
Makes limbs of thought fall
With eternity in view
My decisions continue to stay
Why do I think this way?
What should I say?
Feeling betrayed
I can’t seem to think
Running ragged in my mind
Actions start to follow along
Blinded by the love of youth
Wishing things could change
The beautiful innocent smile
Those wild endearing eyes
My doubt has betrayed me again
The conscience plays games
What’s right and wrong today?
Can I cheat if I play?
A family’s burden is made by themselves
Their decisions their own
Why type of enraged monster I’ve become
Makes the bed for the actions
That are about to take place.
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