I”M OVER IT!!!

There’s a point in life where the most important part of you is you! You,  includes your kids, your home, your finances, your wife or husband, and YOU! Sure you have friends and “family” that matter and we all know that’s a given, but those that go to bed in your house, eat your food, use your gas, and watch your TV are your family and part of YOU! So the contribution You have to make is making sure all is taken care of. You have to pay bills, feed kids, mow the lawn, go shopping, clean house, do laundry, take trash out, do dishes, go shopping for food or necessities, and do what is needed to make everything work for “you”. So if there are other people requiring to be a part of YOU and all that contains then they should know it involves being a part of that right? If there is a bill for 76 dollars and YOU have 40 in your pocket, that’s important to pay that bill right? We need that bill paid more than we need extra fun stuff that we “had to have”. There’s this awesome decency in human nature that brings us to a basic understanding when we use something of someone’s we should repay that regardless of what it does to us, not continue to the point that you are using the person in the end. This can be using YOU for water, food, gas, bed, phone, time, and so many other qualifying things. If YOU notice you are struggling after all those times you stuck your neck out of the others, YOU have to step back and realize YOU are drowning.

This means, cutting as many outside activities you can. This means cutting things in the house that you don’t necessarily need TV, radio, and snacks. This means not purchasing the top brands of good food for your animals. This means not getting those special movie nights going with popcorn and new releases. This means allowing your vehicles basic maintenance to get worse because you had to cut fixing it out of the budget. This means taking more hours at work away from your children and animals so you can pray that extra dollar will make a difference when you are spending that 100 dollars for that weeks’ worth of food. The food that will be highly portioned and watched like a hawk so that waste does not exist. The food that those who do not put it in the house or participate in that 100 dollars you spent should not be eating at all if they can’t assist in purchase and prepare. This means you are going through everything in your house and outside of it looking for things to sell so you don’t get your electricity turned off and yet you watch the continuation of what almost reminds YOU of a succubus slowly but surely drain every human capability of passion right out of your body and soul as their outside relations no matter how fake they seem slide to the front of importance in YOUR world.

This is not fair!! YOU shouldn’t have to cut anything from your family time and family meals to make sure ends meet. You shouldn’t have to watch someone leaching off your every being of likeness that you have such an addiction to giving out to whatever sad eyes meet the look of need. I’m reminded of a song….

Who Will Save Your Soul

Jewel

People living their lives for you on T.V.
They say they’re better than you and you agree
He says “Hold my calls from behind those cold brick walls”
Says “Come here boys, there ain’t nothing for free”
Another doctor’s bill, a lawyer’s bill
Another cute cheap thrill
You know you love him if you put in your will but

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now
Huh huh who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, “girl”
And who will save your souls if you won’t save your own?

We try to hustle them, try to bustle them, try to cuss them
The cops want someone to bust down on Orleans Avenue
Another day, another dollar, another war, another tower
Went up where the homeless had their homes
So we pray to as many different Gods as there are flowers
We call religion our friend
We’re so worried about saving our souls
Afraid that God will take his toll
That we forget to begin but

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now
Huh huh who will save your souls after all the lies that you told, “girl”
And who will save your souls if you won’t save your own?

Some are walking, some are talking, some are stalking and kill
You got social security, but it doesn’t pay your bills
There are addictions to feed and there are mouths to pay
So we bargain with the devil, so evil, careful do they say
That you love them take your money and run
Say it’s been swell, sweetheart, but it was just one of those things
Those flings, those strings you’ve got to cut
So get out on the streets, girls, and bust your butts

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flowers now
Huh huh who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, “girl”
And who will save your soul if you won’t save your own?

 

So many words to this song that scream truth to how I’m feeling right now.  So many ways I feel I have said my piece. So many times I feel like pounding my head through a brick wall due to the obvious confusion to the English language that I thought I was speaking in the first place. How many ways can you ask someone to repay the decency you have shown them by allowing them to live for free under you? Then to think it’s ok to “parent” my animals and kids right in front of me? Don’t forget … we can invite whomever we want to visit or stay when the owners aren’t around. How much more bullshit can I take? I know when my kid needs to eat and go to bed. YOU can’t even figure out when my kids are supposed to be taking their meds and you expect me to just sit back and allow you to think you are boss?

We want us back!! We want our family times, sports, fun, movies, snacks, games, conversations, and just our lives. It’s so hard to continue to care about and support everyone else that you feel bad about or thought they understood what YOU meant when you said you had to take care of YOU. I guess some people just don’t have the common sense to cover the knowledge it takes to realize … I’m over it!!